I had a nice talk with Klaus today. He has a good head on his shoulders. I wish I could have been where he is when I was 18. He looks SO much like my brother Marcus. They even make the same facial expressions and have similar mannerisms; it kind of freaks me out sometimes. Daniel and I went up to the Lotus paddock today. It’s so peaceful up there. All you can hear are the buzzing of the bees and the chirping of the birds. You can’t see any people or hear any cars; it is a really special spot. I want a spot on my property like that. Harvey killed a goat for us for dinner tonight and it was tasty. I made sure to give thanks to it for sacrificing it’s life to sustain mine. The cycle of life is really incredible. It’s amazing to think of how fragile it is. A lion or bear could decide to sacrifice me to sustain it’s own life and that would be that. So natural and beautiful death is, so unavoidable yet people fear it and do everything they can to prevent it. Yet in the blink of an eye it can be gone, that amazes me. Speaking of death, there is an evil, weird looking flying bug in our room (or should I use the correct term “whare” pronounced “worry”). I am convined it’s trying to kill me in my sleep. I am too much of a baby to kill it when I see it and every time Daniel is around it stays hidden. Hopefully I can practice the cycle of life on it before it practices it on me. I’m tired of being so jumpy. I’m going to have to get used to creepy bugs. I just really hate the feeling of being in bed and having something crawl over you. I’m going to be ok. I like it here, but I won’t mind leaving either. I just want to say hi to my mom, I miss her. And the smell of rat piss in the whare is overwhelming. I’m tough though. I can handle it. However I am looking forward to making tacos and having an ice cold ginger brew. But I really am enjoying the primitiveness of this place. No electricity, composting toilets, having everything we eat be out of the garden or killed for us. It’s a really beautiful lifestyle.